Back on the Waggon

I've been off my game with fasting for a couple of weeks.

I had fallen into the trap of thinking, 'argh, this is soooo easy' when actually, it's not!  I don't think it's 'meant' to be easy to go 36 hours without proper food so instead of being sensible I turned to complacency which meant snacking and not playing by the rules!

Luckily I don't seem to have put weight on, (as of last Wednesday) but I certainly haven't lost anymore.
It's OK - I know why which means I can sort it out.

We went to a gig last night for the first time in YEARS and it was FANTASTIC but the seats were tiny and I felt like a total frump dressed in my hand made top and my washed out trousers.  It's time for a change.  The children are old enough to be left with a babysitter now, (if anyone's ever stupid enough to say 'yes' when we ask - it was my dad last night!!!!) and I'd like to go out with my husband but not when I feel as crappy about myself as I do right now.  It will change, I know it will.  Just the process of losing weight is a confidence booster - dropping the stones and dropping the clothes sizes is a bonus to dropping the crappy mental attitude that goes with low self confidence.

Gotta pull my mind inside for a good talking to and jump back on the wagon without further a do.

So...  today is a fast day and I'm looking forward to the challenge, which is nice.

Wish me luck!

Once I feel a bit more confident I'll start taking photographs.

The Road is Long

Yes, the road is long, but I'm getting there!  I have no idea how many fasts I've done so far I just know that I'm still doing them which is a huge bonus considering my usual diet fatigue!!!!

I've lost 19lbs so far and I feel SO MUCH BETTER!  It's just unreal.  I've struggled with the last two fasts mind you but I feel a bit more positive this morning.

I think I've struggled because I didn't lose any weight last week.  I know why I didn't lose weight - I had a serious 4 day binge which made me put four pounds on.  So, actually, YES, I DID lose weight it's just after two fast days my weight was the same as it was the week before as I had put on 4lbs then LOST lbs!!!!!!

I fasted yesterday and it was OK but I was REALLY fed up by about 4.30 so I had my usual - two boiled eggs and some Ryvita.

In my mind I'll be fasting on either Tuesday or Wednesday and Saturday next week, but we'll see.